I’m not going to beat around the bush here because I’m well aware that you prefer the raw truth or nothing at all.
In fact, I’m really not sure what type of response this letter is actually going to be met with since you tend to keep your feelings pretty close to the vest. Believe me, I understand. All it takes is one good time of putting yourself out there and feeling betrayed, shamed or manipulated.
The reason I felt compelled to contact you is to offer some words of encouragement and support to assure you that there’s someone out there who understands your emotional dynamics.
I can sense that you carry a lot of turmoil inside and wage “wars” with yourself that prying eyes aren’t privy to. I understand that even when you feel strongly, you may be hedging your bets and it’s not always an easy task to act on those feelings because it puts you in a vulnerable place, and vulnerability suggests moving into unknown territory and unknown territory means that you won’t have as much control over the situation as you normally do.
Just by observing you, I can see that it’s not easy to trust, because there are so many people who have different definitions that can’t hold a candle to what you have in mind. Also, these very same people may not be ready to delve into the dark as you so easily do. Are you aware of your enormous healing capacity?
Because you’re not afraid to “take it there”, you can potentially assist others in the investigation of areas of their lives which they tend to evade, or ignore altogether. However, it’s best that you use these gifts to confront your own demons in the process. Talk about a win-win!!
There’s more to come, but I’ll leave you with this food for thought right now.