Aquarius Sun, Scorpio Moon

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Your aspirations are geared toward individuating, and becoming who YOU truly think you need to be, irrespective of societal norms or cultural conditioning.

You’re ignited by the restless, rebellious journey you’re traveling. All in the name of “breaking up” with the status quo. Even if you chose not to do that, chances are, it would be quite a tumultous marriage.

One of your keys to self-actualization is to realize that you must continuously transform yourself, and undergo a series of deaths and re-births in order to have the potent impact on humanity that you desire.

Revolutionary and radical change is your fuel, and there’s an emotional need to plumb the depths of yourself and whatever else you’re passionate about.

You may find, that in order to grasp the entirety of who you are, you’ll have to travel down a crisis filled labryinth.

The understanding that you will need to be intrepid while facing these “turning points” is essential.

After all, there’s such a thing as growth opportunities which hold their share of danger and uncertainty.

By maintaining emotional honesty within yourself, you can shine as the eccentric…….

 

Aquarius Sun, Gemini Moon

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There are a multitude of ways to explore one’s uniqueness and part of your purpose for operating with this sun moon blend will be to place information you gather about how you function into a larger context to find out what really makes YOU the person that you are.

Your life’s mission isn’t supposed to be relegated to a static and cumbersome existence. You may find that you’ll have to “try on a number of hats” and embrace the continual transformation that’s taking place.

An insatiably inquiring mind, your ability to adjust to changing circumstances and a non-conformist bent are all resources which you need to tap into in order to maximize this solar/lunar connection. You’ll find that you will be able to display your capacity to awaken others most effectively when coming off of the heels of major insights about yourself and your multi-dimensionality.

With all of this “air” floating around, a concern is that you’ll concoct the most brilliant ideas, but will never use them. Or, you’ll get trapped into your head and rationalize that you’re so “ahead of your time” that others won’t understand you, or in some cases, don’t deserve to hear what you have to say.

Deep down, what you really want is appreciation for being an original thinker who doesn’t suffer from conceptual incarceration and is constantly open to a revolutionary stream of consciousness. However,  there needs to be a solid strategy for bringing form to your brilliance.

If you find yourself feeling stifled, it’s most likely because you haven’t truly allowed yourself the space which you need to circulate or made room for the truism that every second, you’re evolving into a different person.

Obsession about classifying every facet of your being can lead to stagnation of the highest order, so pull out all of the stops in figuring out what makes you tick and then compare what the various explorations are trying to tell you. Understand that this is a lifetime process and that you’re really seeking something that can’t be encompassed in the walls of hard-core definitions.

Leo and Self-Esteem

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Leo energy suggests an inclination toward gaining notice from others and being appreciated for being irreplaceable. 
The validation of one’s identity for being  unique is a central theme.
Planets placed in Leo suggest fulfillment through finding a creative channel as to express distinctly creative gifts to the world at large. Often, the word ‘validation’ gets distorted.  A dangerously inaccurate picture of a person seeking approval from anyone they can find can be developed if we’re not careful. On some level, we all need affirmation that who we are is okay. No woman or man is an island.
To a greater or lesser degree,  we all depend on others to provide this “feedback” to us .The importance of maximizing Leo placements comes with knowing how much weight to assign to the praise or criticism of other people.
There are potentially two extremes here : denying our needs to be affirmed, cherished, recognized and appreciated altogether- or living for the limelight and the lavish praise at the exception of almost everything else. It’s important to find a balance here.Neither of these extremes are healthy in order to produce the type of self-esteem that we need to be a human being that functions at optimum level.
  In his book “The Six Pillars of Self-Esteem”, Nathaniel Branden  refers to Self-Esteem as the “immune system of consciousness” and goes on to say that it’s one of the realities that we can’t avoid. WE NEED IT. We can’t be indifferent to our self-evaluation
Branden goes on to give a more elaborate definition:

Self-esteem, fully realized, is the experience that we are appropriate to life and the requirements of life. More specifically, self-esteem is:

1. Confidence in our ability to think, confidence in our ability to cope with the basic challenges of life.

2. Confidence in our right to be successful and happy, the feeling of being worthy, deserving, entitled to assert our needs and wants, achieve our values and enjoy the fruits of our efforts.

One of the grand themes for Leo is being able to make the make the distinction between authentic and pseudo self-esteem.

The Leo archetype is bold and fiery. It WANTS to be NOTICED. We must remove the notions from our minds that there’s  something inherently “wrong” with this.

I would say that it’s more about what you want to be noticed FOR. In this society, we somehow place more value on the sentiment of wanting to be meek and humble and wait for our rewards some distant day in the future. Thinking that the world will be kind enough to notice us. This may or may NOT happen.

The honorable Marcus Garvey,(Sun in Leo) said it so eloquently:

“We, because of our peculiar understanding in life, have accepted the strange, and often dangerous idea that to be meek and humble is to merit God’s blessing. To the contrary, to be meek and humble is to merit God’s curse.”

The food for thought here is that  possessing GENUINE confidence doesn’t require refusal to acknowledge the abundance that life has bestowed on us. It’s more of an inner recognition of the certainty of our ability to carve out our place in the world.

What’s our measuring stick or navigating tool for deciphering how close we are to possessing authentic self-esteem?

Nathaniel Branden lays down some markers well worth considering in his acclaimed book “The Psychology of Self Esteem”

“But a healthy self esteem gives a man an inestimable weapon in dealing with errors: since his own value and the efficacy of his mind are not in doubt, since he does not feel that reality is his enemy, he is free to bring the full of his intellectual powers and knowledge to the task of identifying facts and dealing with problems. The foundation of his consciousness is secure, so to speak.”

“An individual who develops healthily derives intense pleasure from the work of his mind, from the achievements which that work makes possible. Feeling confident of his ability to deal with the facts of reality , he will want a challenging, effortful, creative existence. Creativeness will be his highest love, whatever his level of intelligence.

“Feeling confident in his own value, he/she will be drawn to self-esteem in others; what he will desire most in human relationships is the opportunity to feel admiration; he will want to find men/women and achievements he can respect , that will give him the pleasure which his own character and achievements can offer others.”

“In the psychology of a man  or woman of authentic self-value, there is no clash between the recognition of the facts of reality and the preservation of his/her self-esteem- since (s)he bases his/her self-esteem on his/her determination to know and act in accordance with the facts of reality as (s)he understands them.”

On the flip side, we have the counterfeit version of self-esteem:

“Pseudo self-esteem, an irrational pretense at self-value, is a non rational, self-protective device to diminish anxiety and to provide a spurious sense of security- to assuage a need for authentic self-esteem while allowing the real causes of its lack to be evaded.”

” A man’s pseudo- self esteem is maintained by two means, essentially: by evading, repressing, rationalizing and otherwise denying ideas and feelings that could affect his self-appraisal adversely; and by seeking to derive his sense of efficacy and worth from something other than rationality, some alternative value or virtue which he experiences as less demanding or more easily attainable such as “doing ones duty”, or being stoical or altruistic or financially successful or sexually attractive.”

“To the man of pseudo self-esteem, reality appears as a threat, as an enemy; he feels, in effect, that it’s reality OR his self-esteem-since his pretense at self-esteem is purchased at the price of evasion, of entrenched areas of blindness, of cognitive self-censorship.”

The choice is essentially ours on how we use any particular sign and planetary energies.

Planetary placements in Leo are ripe for examining issues within which propel us toward, or inhibit us from becoming more of our authentic selves.

Scorpio Sun, Pisces Moon, Cancer Rising

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Heavy immersion in water.

In this combination, raw emotional honesty and the potential for self-healing, as well as facilitating healing in others is illuminated through merging with one’s deepest spiritual source and nurturing your unity with nature. Your cosmic package is surrounded by an acute sense of  self-protection from the dangers which exist through a need to connect with and belong to the human family. Your celestial makeup suggests identification with the pain and suffering as well as the bliss and elation of others.

Some valid questions that this sun/moon/rising combination brings forth are : What is the meaning of authentic personal power? What does it mean to be a wise handler of such power? In what ways does my awareness empower or retard my own healing?

You’re fueled by crisis situations which hold the promise of self-transformation. Your life force is stimulated through delving into the aspects of life which transcend a superficial experience in favor of a deeper existence. You may be perceived as dangerous or threatening by some because whether it’s intentional or not, there’s a penchant for investigation, which by proxy, digs up hidden undercurrents and brings them to the light. Often, people can feel “naked” or exposed in your presence if they’re only attempting to parade what they deem as being the best parts of themselves.

This astrological makeup calls for the deep examination of any inner turmoil which exists as a result of attempts to obsessively control information about oneself. You may feel as if the more you know, and others don’t, the more powerful you are.

While you’re nourished and fulfilled by a sense of connection to a spiritual source and unity with your fellow human beings, one of your challenges is how to go about simultaneously nurturing personal connection with acute insight which isn’t meant for the faint of heart and only well received by those with a similar emotional wavelength.

The dilemma which you face is similar to the one outlined in Chapter 2 of bell hooks’ book “Sisters of The Yam” entitled “Tongues of Fire”.

Hooks writes about how African-Americans confront issues of openness and honesty. The Scorpio Sun suggests that nothing else will do, while the Pisces Moon and Cancer Rising add a refinement which can smooth a cutting edge which keeps ears and hearts open. The author says:

“Often times, black folks find it easier to “tell it like it is” when we are angry, pissed and desire to use “the truth” as a weapon to wound others. In such cases, even though a speaker may be open and honest, their primary agenda may be to assert power over another person and hence use the practice of truth-telling to assault someone else’s psyche. That’s why this chapter attempts to distinguish between the harsh critiques we give one another, which may contain “truth”, and liberating truth-telling, THEY ARE NOT THE SAME.”

With all of this water going on in your chart, there’s no doubt that there’s a swirling of emotional undercurrents. You may have learned sometime in your life that using honesty to “shame” or humiliate another person is the best way to get them to do what you want. In fact, this may have happened to you and you’re merely imitating the very strategies which were impressed upon your mental and emotional body at an earlier time. It’s important that you examine if this is the case or not because your ability to facilitate healing in other people will be only as effective as your absolute honesty with yourself concerning the material that you’re still grappling with.

Amidst the sense of danger that you sometimes may feel, the “vehicle” which you’re equipped with to navigate the world is one which is designed to optimize emotional involvement, yet preserve a safe space for continuous introspection and self-care. When you’re able to understand how to create and maintain inner security, you’ll have a much better idea what constitutes a feeling of mental, spiritual and emotional well-being for others.

References: “Sisters of The Yam” : black women and self-recovery by bell hooks

 

Scorpio Sun, Cancer Moon

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There’s a swirling of interior, self-protective energies contained in this Sun-Moon blend. I call it an “emotional powerhouse”.

A need for emotional security and to connect to others as a biological or ideological “family” is reflected in the personality. One is fulfilled through belonging to that which supplies acceptance and nurturance. There’s a nourishment derived from people and situations which foster growth.

The individual’s vitality is maintained through a desire to plumb the depths of their own existence as a gateway to burning away any debris which is outmoded or could possible muzzle their creativity and self expression.

I also call this blend the “therapist’s therapist” because of the combination of the empathizing, absorbing lunar energy and the penetrative, incisive solar thrust . One thing this Sun-moon blend won’t allow YOU to do is be dishonest with YOURSELF, so imagine the upheaval when they try to play that game with THEMSELVES.

Within this blend, there’s a strong need to give and receive emotional support. When one feels as if they’ve gone above and beyond to be there for another person, and the same sentiments aren’t reciprocated, you will most likely be informed in a way that will stir the depths of your very soul.

The same penetrative powers of analysis which feels to you as if it has “the script” to your heart can be used to dissect you in a language which unmistakably shreds that same script into little pieces.

One of the challenges for this combination will be to direct that energy toward their own self-care and well being:

“Healer: Heal Thyself!!” is the call.

Venus in Gemini, Mars in Scorpio

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Although you’re the type to enjoy a lighthearted “good time” and may even express your deepest feelings in the form of anecdotes,  if someone were to delve into your interior just a little bit more, they would see that it’s not all adolescent giggles and midnight games of scrabble.

You value variety, but depth is pursued in a fervent, almost “do or die” fashion. Once you get your emotional energy swirling behind a cause (especially love or lust), all bets are off.

You have the potential to relate to others with a dexterity which disarms them, but you don’t stop there. In fact, this is only a means to explore the gloss of the surface before diving into deep waters. Once you’ve arrived you like to penetrate and be penetrated : spiritually, physically, psychologically and emotionally.

One may get the idea that you’re footloose and fancy free because you seem to navigate life with such aplomb, but what they may not see unless they get extremely close to you is your craving for intensity. What people fail to understand about you is that you view sex as just one of the many vehicles that can be used to explore and solidify a deeper connection with another human being. So, your true reasons for engaging in the throes of intimacy are often at variance with what others expect.

Your psychological makeup could be compared to a burner on a stove that doesn’t turn orange when it warms up, so people try to touch you and get scorched because they had NO IDEA you were so hot.

You need your privacy, but in order to remain true to yourself, it’s important that you cultivate the ability to make your deepest needs known to others. Learning the difference between strategic self-protection and deception is part of your life’s work.

 

 

Gemini Sun, Leo Moon, Aquarius Rising

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The freedom to circulate like air fuels your vitality. The sooner you recognize your many facets and realize that it’s impossible for you to be trapped in any type of box- the better.

Your emotional needs center around issues of self-confidence and honest acceptance of your uniqueness. You must feel validated from the inside in order to be fulfilled. Much of your life’s journey is about exercising youthful curiosity and asking the right questions, which will yield useful information and expanded understanding.

The primary lens through which you process your experience is one which challenges what some would refer to as “customary” or “normal”.

For you, the status quo is something to be questioned at all costs. You seek to serve and uplift humanity on a large scale and will find that exercising your ability for objective detachment will allow you to see people and issues from a much wider view, which automatically increases everything you’re able to take into your storehouse.

For your being to illuminate, it’s important that you feel literate in the most authentic sense. To be engaged in that which stimulates you energizes your life force . Even if you come across ideas which may be “conflicting” , you somehow have a knack for understanding and navigating life’s dualities.

For you, the key component which needs to be incorporated is genuine self-esteem.  That is, the ability to develop your personal identity and subsequently attach a value to it. Do you like what you see? How do you feel about what you’re becoming?

Because the work of the Gemini Sun is done through the Leo Moon, your specialness must be solidified and enjoyed before you can do the work of exploring all of your dimensions. It’s also important to recognize that rejection of certain parts of yourself can limit your capacity to connect with others and this will debilitate that Aquarius rising “common touch” that you would regularly display under more healthy circumstances.

Enjoy being yourself with all of your quirks, never stop asking relevant questions and use differences in people as a vehicle to gain more understanding of yourself and others.